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Lonewolf989
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Country: United States
State: Ohio
Gender: Male
Interests: Video games, movies, reading books, taking pictures of things, living one more day, punishment (I'm a glutton for it), and other various things.
Expertise: Jack of all trades master of none...well that's not true...the jack of all trades part that is. The other part is correct though =P
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
11/8/2003
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| Hola my fine amigos (is there a seperate term for women in that sense? *shrug*)
So, I noticed I haven't posted in a long, long while so I decided while I was doing nothing on the computer I would give a shout out. Lesse anything going on...well the two/only girls that would be interested in me at work both have boyfriends. One (the art student) is dating one of the other servers and the other (one I didn't mention) I found out just through general coversation has a boyfriend as well...*shrug* not much I can do about that though. Hopefully when school starts I can finally start meeting new people. Other news...went to go see Pirates @ the midnight showing which rocked. I kind of liked how they left it so open but I know a lot of people see it otherwise. The acting of course was very well done and the antics of Jack Sparrow were awesome. Hmm...mostly just been working otherwise although I did go to the Ren. faire again this year. Didn't get to buy any sharp objects due to lack of money but c'est la vie such is working at a place just to get some college funds. That's really about it...yeah I know my life is just way too exciting, right? Sorry I haven't been posting my sched like I said I would but no one has come to see me yet so I kinda slacked on it lol although I do realize it isn't cheap to eat out so no fault on anyone but the prices in resteraunts =P.
Have any of you just wanted to disappear? Not that you're extremely unhappy but you just want to be away? To travel around and see what the world has in it? Maybe just pack up a bag, hop in the car, drive it till it runs out of gas, and dump it to walk the rest of the journey? That's what I've wanted lately...been kind of a mix of wanderlust and being down lol. Not that I could afford to do that...to many responsibilites but everyone who reads this knows all about those...probably better than I do. The thing about my mood is that it's a little viciouse cycle because I get down, start getting angry that I'm down, start getting even more angry at myself because a lot of people have it worse, and then get even more down than when I began hehe. Granted it's not really a laughing matter but I can't laugh at the situation a little bit I'm doomed. Honestly, I just feel like my past 24 years have been a complete and total waste of time. I feel like if I haven't failed in something I just gave up which is pretty close to the same thing anyways. I'm damned good at computers but quit the field because I was 'bored' of it. All my relationships (romantic...the few ones there are) I actually feel like I failed them even though I know they have their own blame to share. Relationships with most of my family are *meh* at best even though I love them it seems like the bonds I share with them are always on razors edge and getting ready to break (even more so than normal family relations should be). I usually always fail as a friend because if I don't bail on something I never make the attempt to hook up and just hang out. Losing Harley and co. was actually a pretty big blow because they were my best buds and I just cut myself off thinking "ahh well they are headed in a different direction." Sure I have good memories like when I did get to hang with my friends, when my dad and I actually did have a halfway decent relation between each other, taking karate, and things of that sort. Now it just seems I work, I come home, I start either waxing nostalgic to the air or I get down because all around me people have someone and I have no one. *shrug* See there it is...then the next thought I have and anyone reading this would have is "It's life man...deal with it. Not much you can do and it can always be worse than it is." As true as this is it doesn't stop the thoughts...if it were that simple to fix problems all of mine and everyone elses would have been gone ages ago. Here's hoping to getting myself out of it soon. Not like I would hurt myself if I don't...I'm too much of a coward to do anything which I consider it's own bravery funny little hipocrasy going on, no?
--B
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| Well I haven't posted in awhile so I figured I should hop on and give everyone a quick lowdown and stuffs. As per the usual not too much is going on aside from working at CiP running around there =). I really like working there a lot...the people are nice, the food is good, I actually made a bud with one of the dudes I work with who games, met up with someone I graduated with from HS who plays the entertainment/Servs there, and the discount doesn't hurt either =P. Pretty much the only problem I would have if when customers get angry but even then it's pretty easy stuff to handle though when it isn't a manager is there to take the bullet instead of you to help out. Umm, I bought an XBOX 360 just so I could play Oblivion and other games that have come out that look interesting.
As far as everything else goes I did kinda of have a request of everyone to give me some advice...well see there happens to be a girl at work that I think is rather interesting (her name is Amanda). We've talked off and on during our shifts but when she is serviing she is running like a chicken with its head lobbed off and so am I thus the convos are light at best. We have had a chance to chat a bit last Sunday as she does face painting for kids that come into CiP and usually ends up giving us Hosts or anyone else one as well...last week I got Nessie on my face =P. Anywhoo, as you can kind of tell from the ramble located above I kinda dig her but two problems present themselves 1) I don't know how to recognize an interest on her part or if she is just being friendly (because she talks to everyone with a happy/nice attitude so *shrug*) and 2)I don't know if I should even ask her out or how to go about it. In all honesty I've gotten lucky with the two people I actually dated because with the other Amanda (Bili knows who I mean) he kinda set us up and she asked me out not the other way around. With Tam it was different because I actually asked her out but the entire situation with her has been comepletely out of the norm since day one which everyone and their mother knows by now. So, it boils down to the fact that I A) Have little self esteem when it comes to asking someone out because I always feel like saying "So, I'm not even remotely good looking or anything like that but would you wanna go out some time" which I know which answer I would get there lol. The other one B) is that I have no idea how to go about it...I'm sheltered what can I say...relating to people so far as trying to date has not been my fortee nor even been something I have had contact with. The entire situation stinks because she is the first girl I've had any interest in what-so-ever since Tam and I can't even get myself to see if I can ask her out on a simple date where we just hang out. Not like I'm gonna marry her or expect an immediate relationship for the ages, but I do want to go out and have fun with someone and perhaps see where it goes if anywhere. The only other thing that bothers me is that I don't want to be the guy who seems to start working somewhere, finds cute girls, and tries to pick up all of them that work there moving on to one after another depending on the rejection. So, if anyone wants to gimme any kinda thoughts cool. If not it was something that was going on so I reported it thus filling gaps in the time between when I posted last and now =P.
On a note to Bili: I read the paper and think it's awesome that 1) You're doing that project and B) Had an awesome write up in the paper. Also, your new well in the backyard is something I will avoid now that a Ring reference was made to it =P. Plus, I will know whether I can definately come to the BBQ on the 2nd by Thurs when they post our sched. I put in for the day off but there were a few ahead of me so I can't say for certain that I will get it off but will try my best.
As an aside to everyone I'm gonna post on protected my sched so everyone can come and visit but I'm not posting it for every living person on the web to see =P. Anyone not on my protected list can either A) Ask Bili/Bork/Coreman for it or B) Bugger off! =). Anywhoo I'm gonna head out to get some sleep. Been missing out recently so I need to make some up =P.
Later =)
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| Hey Everyone!
Well I actually did stuff this week...imagine that =P. Firstly, most of the week was taken up by training over at CiP doing the whole learning how to serve people and training for Bar. Not much else went on there and my frist start day is tomorrow at 3-whenever they let me go for the night. So now I get to wear some nice, bright, happy island wear and put in peoples party numbers. Umm, I went to Cedar Point on Saturday which was awesome! The only thing that was a problem was that the Millenium Force broke down twice while I was in line and then the Dragster went down because of the rain. This made it so not many rides were able to be ridden, but it was still a good day =). Let's see...today I went out to pick up some clothes for work and picked a set of Batman Legos to start my new project...the Lego city of happiness. This will include Batman, Vikings, Harry Potter, Knights, and Star Wars in a good 'ol fashion city with hospitals and the like. It will be a thriving metropolis that will take forever but be cool looking when finished =). Other than that not much went on but what did was throughly enjoyable hehe. Starting this mon-weds I will be at CiP, so if you want some food and to pick on the newbie than head on over =P. Going to head out so talk to everyone later.
--B
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| Hey Everyone =)
I'll keep it short and to the point today as I'm in a really horrid mood and don't want it to spill over more than this little sentence here. Not much as been going on except reading up on my Cheeseburger manual from work which has a section w/ lyrics to the song =). Can't really say anything else as I signed a confidentiality agreement when I was hired needless to say it seems like it will be a cool place to work with a really laid back dress code. Umm...I went to go see "The Da Vinci Code" today which was a nice movie. Taken in the context of a fiction story it was an awesome story that I don't really see why people are getting bent out of shape. The problem comes in the form that I do know why because Brown decided to state that everything in the book was pretty much real and very well researched. Honestly I don't see any of these things as being based in truth but then I have limited knowledge of biblical matters and how they came about. The one thing that I don't see why people are getting steamed is the whole "Jesus was married" thing. Since the people who read this minus Shaun attend church can fill me in on the why...I would think it to be natural that he may have gotten married to someone. Granted with all the traveling around that he did he might not have had the time to find someone, but love is the most pure form of expression of good that I can think of. There is also faith but that is leading down a whole nother road and anyhow both have their dark sides do they not so *shrug* I tend to try to stay out of deep religious debates as I am nowhere near qualified enough to have a good handle on it.
Lesse...hmm...topic change...umm...I tried Tequila straight for the first time last night for no other reason then to try it? Let me add EWW to that because that stuff was nasty although it might be one of those "aquired tastes" kinda things. Only other thing I can think of is that I'm going to try and start working out again so I can redirect some energy that would otherwise be spent feeling *blech* and ummm hopefully I start my training this week at work if I didn't mention that...I really need the paycheck/tips so hopefully the training will only be a day or two then I'll be working by weeks end.
That's really all I can think of...oh yeah I got to play some mini golf yesterday which was the top of awesomeness as I haven't been able to really leave the house much due to cash flow problems =). Anyways I'm gonna head out here...feeling a bit better just typing out other stuff going on so I might watch some TV, play on the computer, or maybe head to bed (I was up late last night/this morning so sleep sounds really good lol)
Seeya everyone =)
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| Well I am now in the working rat race again =)
I got a job up at this place as a Host seeting peoples and making OK cash, but the important part is that it is $$ which I am now in dire need lol. Other than that I have no new news lol. Going to start my training next week and listen to Jimmy Buffet all day =). When I'm working some night when I post my sched you guys need to come in and see me + eat the awesomeness =P.
Seeya later =)
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